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| Wow. It's offically Christmas day '05 and so much is going on... Things are so crazy in my life it makes me wonder where to start.... Heck I'll start with my least fav. topic and the thing that is bugging me the most currently... My mom.
I don't know what it is about Christmas but it always seems to turn her into more of a bitch than usual.... Money in my family is realy tight at the moment being as mom has decided that next year she is quitting her 12 year career as a teacher. Not much of a suprise being as she whines about everything that happens at work all the time. What troubbles me about it is that she doesn't even have another job lined up, it buggs me to death that she is making that decision that is going to affect all of us without even having a thought as to what she might do instead. As if my Dad didn't work so hard all the time that he gets sick so often and compleetly ignores any injury he sustains. He's a carpenter and it's really challenging on him physically being as he isn't exaclty young any more being over fifty.... I could really see it dragging him down a few months ago when I went to work with him for a few days. Especially when he had to move around his compressor which weighs around 95 pounds. He could hardly even lift the thing. So for christmas I decided that I would buy him a new one... Knowing nothing about them though I had to do quite a bit of research and call a few different local hardware stores to find if they even carried them. My end result was a compressor in the next town over with equal power weighing 5 times less for only $150. Of course this has to round back into why my mother agitates me so, and it does with me asking her for a ride to the lumber stoor. The entire drive there she tried to convince me out of buying it, saying things along the lines of "You don't want to spend that much of your savings" and "He doesn't need one that badly". All I had to say was that it was my money and Dad really did need one, the other one was killing his back. Finally she gave in as we got up to the counter to pay for it. All of a sudden she pulled out her checkbook and wrote a check for $100 and woulden't let me pay for it on my own. I was totaly against it being as she said she was saving because she was quitting her job ((which upsets me to no end)). I let it go though eventually after she started to get snippy... I didn't want another fight. Anyways I got home, put the compressor in the office and went to eat lunch. Afterwards I came back, found the compressor was gone, and had to ask mom if she moved it. Saying yes she pointed to a wrapped presant under the tree..... I can honestly understand her not wanting me to pay for the compressor. I mean really $150 is a fair chunk of money to me, but it was my gift idea, my research in getting it, my thoughts about making things easier for dad, and her name on the freakin tag in big bold loopy cursif, my name squeezed in the corner like an after thought. I could just be over reacting... I mean I am touchy about what I get people as presents and I don't just randomly say "huh I need to get someone something." I put a lot of thought into it. ESPECIALLY with my Dad... The compressor is the only gift I had in mind for him and wanted to give it to him on my own. My mother had already done some shopping for him and had 7 other items for him under that tree... I ended up looking like the cheepskate that just put my name on her big gift.... It could also be that I am especially sensitive to things comming from my mom. I know I am, and maybe this is just partly me still being upset with her over a silly little game.
Yesterday we were out shopping for Christmas presents again and she bought herself a game, just so we could play it after lunch. Well she also bought some flowers and I was really looking foward to sketching them out in my sketch book when we got home. You know how that works... You just see something and get inspired to do something with your hands. Well I didn't get to sketch being as mom dragged me out on the deck to play her new game. I creamed her the first round and was resetting the pices for another round when I dropped one. It slipped through a crack into the deck and down into a huge pile of leaves. Going down to look for it I listened to her sitting up there asking every half a minuet if I had found that stupid little square. After 10 minuets or so of searching I said "No, and I don't think I'm going to without help." So she came down and helped look for a few minuets. Not being able to find it I suggested that we just use a dime as a replacement. Well apparently that wsn't good enough because she went back up to the deck, and started putting the game away like little kids do when they are mad. Sitting down next to her I asked her hat was the matter as I helped her put the pices away. She went into this ten minuet pseach berating me on how I was such a clutz and how I should have looked harder down there and found the stupid pieace. After a bit of it when she paused I got up to leave, not wanting to be around someone who is just going to intentionally bring me down. I just coulden't believe that she was so upset about a game that she would say such hurtfull things without a moment's pause... After a bit she followed me inside and demanded that I go back down and look for the pice. I blantantly stated that I would do no such thing because it was a game and shoulden't take priority over the feelings of another person.... After a bit of yelling she left me alone and I never did go look for that stupid square.
I could also be rather upset with her about the way she woke me up this morning... Yes I will admit that I do dissobey her often and sneak onto this verry website which she has fobidden to me in the middle of the night, but there is no cause for her to wake me up at 7 am in the morning by screaming in my ear "WHAT THE F^#& DID YOU DO TO MY CPU?!" when the monitor was flashing "No input selected" as it does when the electricity goes off.... It wasn't even my fault. Yet again, she acted without thinking about how I would feel and let her computer take priority... Thanks alot mom Merry Christmass to you too.
x_x I think that's about enough for the moment. Enough of me whining that is. I haven't even gone to bed yet and it's 3:24 a.m.lol and my parents said they were waking me up at nine for breakfast. Ahh well I suppose I'll write more tomorow. Night night everyone. ^^ | | |
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Ok here's the scoop all my friends have ben bugging me to read their Xanga and talk about it. Apparently it's the newest fad.... I suppose I out to check it out and make my posts so I can return the favor of concuming their time with my thoughts. ^^ Just kidding, I love you guys and I do enjoy reading about you. | | |
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